i've actually cried last night believe or not, reason being cause i dun think i have enough money to fund my overseas fencing trip to europe, which i really want cause aikghee and his students really really improved after coming back..and tts what i need in my fencing career at present moment, but instead i'll short change myself and go to this upcoming Commonwelth junior fencing champs in Chennai, India in jan. i dunno why i actually broke down like a whuss lar.. i guess its tt same feeling of how if someone comes up to you and tells you.... erm.. okay lar i cant think of any examples at the moment.. it just sucks lar. big time.

but then.. after talking to my big sis i guess im clearer on my short terms/long term plans..

thanks babe. heart you.

work's been pain in the ass. i've no time to train..the only exercise time would be going down to play soccer with the neighbourhood mats (which ive been doing quite regularly nowadays)..and today, i kicked around with the tiny kids who sells curry puffs downstairs at the walkway. :S

so india here i come..

i love this one.. shane sent.